Change to change

Day 2 of 12wbt and I seem to be doing ok. Last night was the hardest part so far hard as I was starving when I went to bed and could not stay sleep. It was mostly due to hunger but also because of the nerve pain from my shingles on my face. It was driving me crazy. I managed to scratch the hell out of my eye and forehead and needed to take painkillers and phenergan at 230am. This morning I was exhausted!

My day was really busy and I could tell by mid-morning that I would not make the gym by 1230pm as planned. Now, I usually have lunch after the gym, but today it was getting too late. I was really hungry, but knew if I had lunch first I may have ditched the gym. The usual excuses "I'll do it later" started entering my thoughts, "I'm too tired", then "I'm so hungry, I'll have something different, I'll buy a healthy sandwich, its more carbs but so what". Now, none of these would be unreasonable, I was tired, I was hungry, I was running late. Presented with these thoughts it suddenly hit me.

If I want my body to change, I have to change.

If I want to change, I have to change what I do.

Sounds simple, but it was a lightbulb moment. I thought, if not now, when? Why keep making excuses? Don't do it tomorrow, do it today. Just f***ing do it. JFDI.

So I did.

I went to the gym, even though I was a little hungry. I didn't effect my workout.
I bought a simple salad with protein, similar to what was on the menu for dinner tonight.
I will eat my chicken noodle soup for dinner.
Despite my busy day, I managed to stick to the program.

I'm guessing that I make a lot of excuses, which is why I struggle to reach my goals. If I can work this out on Day 2 of the program, I am eager to see what else will come up in the following weeks. Hoepfully I can meet those challenges head on, too.

I'm really excited!

Putting it out there

Today I plan to run on the road for 5km.

Last week I achieved the goal of running 5km, but it was on a treadmill. I am dreading it so I thought I would put it out into the ether so I would have to do it! I live at the top of a hill (not very motivating as the end of the run is always uphill!), so my plan is to run down the hill, along a track, and back and see where the 5km ends. Then I will walk back up the hill!

So there it is- I will report back tonight with my progress.

Wish me luck.

8pm- I did it! It was not easy, my calves were burning and I was trying to keep up a certain pace which I just managed. While it hurt at the time, it was totally satisfying!